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What I know


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I know we will not live long enough

to witness the worst that, without a miracle,

will befall our children

 

and that women must be loved

on one’s knees, which I cannot, and supine,

and standing, which I cannot, or on one’s side,

with all five senses, and the vital three

(brain, heart and penis).

 

What else? That I am Prospero,

Caliban and, in love with Miranda,

 

that in my tenuous pantheon are Moses,

Jesus, Mahomet and the Buddha,

Shakespeare, Auden, Beethoven, Bach

and many minor gods, also

the Goddess who rules them:

 

that faces are pulled at our backs,

children learn to boo in unison,

welcome small accidents with hearty laughter

and thumb their nose at giants

Is chiefly her fault, Dame Kind’s

wayward daughter.

 

 

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Marx and Freud flayed the body politic

something drained and something died

verity relaxed and we came out of hiding

infants know more than we did.

 

 

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But what are you?

Damaged goods

and steep the way

and my love

 

In a customs shed

I have not declared

my veniality

 

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Joys of imagined fleshs

scented, in close embrace

speaking to chemicals

fixate intelligence

 

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The fish on the hook

stares you in the eye

the hen on the block

does not want to die

Caliban is back.

 

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Father falters by the shed

Grandmother’s already dead

there’s so much to consider

and the blonde in Baby’s bed

what does that mean?

 

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Who’s rooting for the strawberry

O enlightened one?

 

That when our backs are turned faces, are pulled,

that children learn to boo in unison,

welcome small accidents with hearty laughter

and are prepared to thumb their nose at giants

Is chiefly her fault, Dame Kind’s wayward daughter,

her lessons in mockery, eggings on

and unequivocal contempt for humbug.

She. above all the Great Ones, we revere

but could not live with.

 

She is called Widow, Mother (honorific.

usually Old) and Nurse. Her heart is large

and honest, as  the rest of her. Unlike

the Villain (boo!) and the Principal Boy,

who is a girl and Something for the Dads

who otherwise won’t come.